No Words, in other words Lots of Babbling/Venting

;slakeut[oiwu4. as;lt. grrrrrr. Some people... sometimes. Ugh. I had this girl/friend/whatever and we get along really well, or a least we did, and i forgot to tell her i wasn't going to be around when she thought i was... i apologized and tried to be there as much as i could, but she did not accept. Then I deleted her from my MySpace friends list. Well I guess even though she had completely shunned me before I deleted her I still had the power to tick her off. So now, her husband can't have me on his friends list. But she can still have my husband on hers. I feel like such a friggin high schooler. This is the exact reason I did not date guys that went to my high school. (For the most part) Now I have to deal with it in my adult life and nobody is acting like an adult!!!!! Maybe I should just take a deep breath and forget about it. I have plenty of friends who aren't on my "friends list" and they are still just as much my friend now as ever. I hate my oversensitivity! And sometimes people bug me... Then there's people like Ali. (Hi Ali) Nice, caring, nice. I like nice people. There's really not too many of them to be honest. It seems like everybody either wants something or doesn't REALLY care about you, just what you can do for them. I'm lucky, I have a few friends who are truly friends. My problem is I start out thinking everybody is truly a friend and then they let me down once, then twice... the number of times varies and then I figure out that that person is not really my friend. It's a sad realization and it's hard for me to let go of the person, but it is better for me to let go than to get continuously hurt by someone who really doesn't care if I'm in their life at all. Gonna be home in two days. Got to see most people I wanted to, not Jen though... don't have her number at the moment... and not the lady that babysat me for nine years, I'll have to try to do that within the next couple of days. I'm excited to go back to Cali. It will probably be more relaxing than it is here, and I can actually feel useful because I will actually be useful. Sam called to talk last night. The conversation went pretty well but I got irritated at something and said some stupid things. I think he's forgiven me though. I'm not sure, but it seems that way b/c we spoke tonight and I think he's going to call me again later. Hopefully that conversation will go better. :-D Got my fingers crossed.