After Loving You I Could Never Be The Same

~Tonight was windy...  Jeremy's car wouldn't start and I had to call a guy friend I work with and ask for a ride.  It took him a while to find my place, so I had some thinking time.

I stood, in the wind, let it wash over me... spread my fingers, which were mostly covered by my fingerless gloves, and let the wind rush between them.♥

I felt God romancing me.  I love when He does that.

Just now I was posting some pix on fb, and I was looking at some old pix... lol, not very old, two months...

I love my kids.

They're all special in their own ways...

Kheaven is God romancing me.  It may just be a baby thing, or maybe it's him.  :)
I love his smiles, and his laughs, and his noises, and his movements.  I love how most of the time he's healthy, even though it's not something I expect.  I love how smart he seems to me.  I love how much he reminds me of the other two kids.  He's quite wonderful in every way I can think of.  :)

He is definitely the definition of everything I never knew I always wanted.~

♥Thank you, God, for my kids.  Thank you for giving me them, before I even knew I wanted them...  Thanking for taking situations I ruined with my humanness and making something amazing as a result.  I know I am fighting You right now...  So much so that I can hardly pray for You to change my heart.  I love You.  I'm sorry I can't be the kind of servant You deserve sometimes...  all the time.  Thank you for your Grace and loving me still.♥

If you pray, please read this.

Hi-I'm not doing very well right now, it's for reasons that I'd rather not explain in a format so public. Anyway, I could really use prayers for financial stability, for myself to be understanding and for my husband to be understanding. Also if you could pray for my son, that no matter what happens he ends up happy and well taken care of I would really appreciate it. Please remember... I could really use the help. Thank you.


COMMENTS:
summer_mommy wrote:

Jun. 26th, 2005 11:23 pm (local)

I'm sorry things aren't going well for you right now. I will definitely keep you all in my thoughts. And I'm sure that Austin will be just fine, no matter what. Take care of yourself. And I hope everything gets better soon.