Bored.

Not a word I generally have in my vocabulary.
After being a city dweller my entire life I moved to the country this past October.
The country is not what I find boring by any means.
It is full of life, new adventures, and people that seem like they could be straight from the book I will someday write.
I am bored with my photography.
Seems like a simple dilemma to solve, does it not?
Ever since I got my professional camera in May of 2010 it seems like a lot of my creativity was sucked right out of me!! (That is unless I have a cell phone camera, I still have brief moments of awesome with that.)
I see beauty. I see the unseen. I am just afraid to take risks. (With my camera)
Weird. I take risks and have taken risks with many things in life, so why should my photography be any different?
I know a lot of my energy goes to house keeping, kids and life in general, but being creative gives me energy for life... it doesn't take it.
It's like writer's block for photography..... I feel like I am lacking something. I don't know how to find it, but I may be on a mission.

Just Stuff Like Usual

well, i feel like just spilling a bunch of stuff, but i'm on a time limit here so i think i'm just gonna say what comes to mind...

sam is driving me crazy. he's been "trying" and i appreciate the effort but he's just turn into a crazy jealous person who doesn't want me to have any friends... i need friends, guys and girls...

i love my friends! danielle's been in ohio since the end of january but we talk on the phone quite a bit so i don't feel like i've lost her.

school is becoming difficult. i'm trying to figure out how to balance keeping the apartment in order, taking care of austin 24/7 and having the chance to get any schoolwork done. i don't have any babysitters, sam hasn't lived here since the end of january, and he only comes around on the nights i have school to watch austin. (he's still pretty much restricted to stay on base, especially over night)

i really want to get more into photography. i want to take a digital photography class and i want a better camera.

i know i have more to say, but i have to go get ready for my monthy luncheon!

hope everyone is doing well.