Venting

I'm sick of people.

I'm sick of trusting and being let down.

I'm sick of thinking I'm past being naive and being let down again.

I miss Bri.  I miss Danielle.  I miss knowing they were there emotionally AND physically.  (like, in person)  I miss boyfriends that knew how to make me feel wanted.  Maybe they were players... maybe they ended up breaking my heart (with help from me of course) but it was nice to feel wanted.

I'm glad I have the kids.

I'm glad I enjoy them.

I'm glad I have the time to enjoy them.

Someday they may let me down in ways, but I hope that I don't see it that way when it happens.

Just Stuff Like Usual

well, i feel like just spilling a bunch of stuff, but i'm on a time limit here so i think i'm just gonna say what comes to mind...

sam is driving me crazy. he's been "trying" and i appreciate the effort but he's just turn into a crazy jealous person who doesn't want me to have any friends... i need friends, guys and girls...

i love my friends! danielle's been in ohio since the end of january but we talk on the phone quite a bit so i don't feel like i've lost her.

school is becoming difficult. i'm trying to figure out how to balance keeping the apartment in order, taking care of austin 24/7 and having the chance to get any schoolwork done. i don't have any babysitters, sam hasn't lived here since the end of january, and he only comes around on the nights i have school to watch austin. (he's still pretty much restricted to stay on base, especially over night)

i really want to get more into photography. i want to take a digital photography class and i want a better camera.

i know i have more to say, but i have to go get ready for my monthy luncheon!

hope everyone is doing well.