Missing People, Missing Places, Missing Things

I miss my VA friends. I mean not that I've really ever stopped missing them since I left, but for some reason lately I have really been missing them. Maybe it's a longing for things to be as fun and carefree as they were for the first four months I was there, but there were really fun times even after I was pregnant. There was just a whole bunch of us and we got along and had parties and even if we weren't having parties we'd just hang out, a few of us at a time. There were always people stopping by, always people to call whenever the need arose, there was always someone who seemed to really care. I've got friends in Cali, some really good ones with big hearts and awesome personalities but the friendships aren't on the same level they were in VA. People were closer together in VA, we lived in the same apartment complex with a lot of our friends and if they weren't in the same complex they were pretty darn close, and things were more exciting out there. I remember where things were but not really the names of the roads as well anymore. I think it was Military Hwy that was fun to drive down after getting off of VA beach Blvd. There were so many interesting looking people and the malls were close and the grocery store was closer and there weren't so many dang hills. I guess I still think of it as my home. I've been in Cali less for less than I was in VA, but it's getting pretty close. I dunno, I don't think I'd miss here half as much as I miss there, and I could live around where I was in VA. If I lived in Cali I think I for sure could not stay in this town. There are beautiful parts of it, but there are still some things that I just really am not fond of. I know it could be worse, and I'm glad I get to see different places, but I wish I was home in VA, hanging out with the same people and maybe a few new ones. I wish that everybody who got to see Austin grow through my tummy could see him grow in real life. I wish that I was there to help my friends when they're going through a tough time and I wish I was there to see them when they're happy... I guess eventually everyone will either get transfered or get out, and then I'll only have the area, but it's not like it was a bad area. I guess now that I've been living the military life longer it's harder for me to make good friends with someone b/c I know eventually they'll leave or I'll leave and as much as I want to continue being friends with them it's not the easiest keeping up a long distance relationship. I can look forward to someday when there's a good chance I won't have to move around all the time or worry about people moving away from me, but then it's hard to live in the now b/c I'm looking forward to then. I know there's always something to be thankful for, but other than Austin I'm really starting to wonder what. I'm sorry my entries have been so down lately, I'm sure I'll be fine and spunky again eventually, just not now.