Ball of StreSS

I'm tired. I've got to be to work in little more than an hour and I haven't slept yet. The good news is I've only been awake 14 hours. But still, I work till 9AM and by that time I'll have been awake for 18ish hours. Today's Nayeli's b-day but like I said I work early this morning, then again from 9pm-12am. Jeremy works from 11am-2:30pm, then has school from 5:30-8:40. Cake and presents is going to be 3ish-5ish.

I got "talked" to at work the other day b/c a customer, I guess, complained about me. I try really hard at work, I do what I'm suppose to do, I'm nice to people who are not nice to me, and I'm very smiley and try to be very helpful. This person supposedly complained b/c I was not at "my station" when I was doing self check some time between 10pm-12am. We don't have sackers at that time, so being the only other person in front, other than the cashier, when we are dead, for the most part I sack groceries. If someone needs assistant at self check I am there within five seconds. I have no idea what provoked this women to complain about me, as I do not recall any circumstance that would have called for such an action, but whatev. I'm so frustrated that I practically work my butt off, while the majority of my co-workers skate by doing the bare minimum and I get talked to. It frustrates me so much. I also understand customers come first, which mine do, but what I do not understand is management's need to bring people down instead of build them up. I have not once in the six months I've been at the store gotten a compliment from one of them. I'd really like to let the situation go, but it makes me so angry every time I think of it, like it's totally not worth trying so hard when they're never going to notice or appreciate my effort anyway.

I feel like I'm starting to not like people in general. Not that I ever was fond of a whole lot before. I like my best friends, some of my family and my kids. Wow anti-socialness. :-P

I had an anxiety attack on Saturday. It was while I was working and I was overwhelmed with people's bad attitudes. Sometimes I'm so stressed/angry that my chest hurts, sort of like it's on fire. I don't know what I'm so angry about or how to let it go. It's driving me crazy, almost literally. There are things that provoke it even more and they're little thigns that happen often... like right now when it seems like Jeremy has the TV blaring and I just want it to be quiet. I hate to take life for granted but, other than the kids I'm not insanely happy about it right now. :-S I dunno what to do or what to change though. :-(