Something I Wrote During Soc. Class

My sociology teacher was talking about ethnicity and how when you hear your native language or music that's from "the old country" it gives your heart a little fuzzy feeling. She's sicilian and greek. She gave an example of Germans at Octoberfest with their kilbasa (sorry I probably really messed up the spelling on that word)... brats, beer, and polka. I think that's the one that I'd associate with the most. Still, the topic made me think about how even though I was brought up with the German ethnicity being the closest to something I could call my own that any time I hear something Asian, or Russian, or Mexican I get a certain feeling that somehow makes me feel connected to that particular culture. I think, and have always thought that everyone was connected somehow. I wish that I could put into words the sense I get when I'm surrounded by a large number of people who all have the same culture/ethnicity. No matter how hard I try though I am not a part of it, unless it's American, like Independence Day or Thanksgiving or something. Maybe someday I will know enough of another language and the history of the people that speak that language, so maybe I will be able to sneak my way into a set ethnic group. OR, maybe I'll live somewhere long enough to have a culture of my own. The military has it's own culture... I don't just want a culture though, I want ethnicity too.. other than American. American isn't bad, it's just that since I'm in America I want something older. :-P


COMMENTS:

(Anonymous) wrote:

Jul. 22nd, 2005 03:34 pm (local)

to me it sounds like you are desperatly trying to be someone that your not. You do have an ethnic group, just like yes I'm American I am also Irish and Polish. You need to figure out who you are not who you want to pretend to be or make people think you are. Why is it so hard just to be you?

yoshi_rose wrote:

Jul. 23rd, 2005 01:03 am (local)

i still want to be me, i just want to have something more than the english language and the german polka. but it probably stems deeper than that, to what extent i have no idea. and it's hard to be "me" because me has almost always been who other people want me to be. don't know how to fix it...