| TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey | |
| Name: | Amy |
| Birthday: | 2/21 |
| Birthplace: | Fond du Lac, WI |
| Current Location: | Fallbrook, CA |
| Eye Color: | Brown |
| Hair Color: | Brunette |
| Height: | 62.5 inches |
| Right Handed or Left Handed: | Right |
| Your Heritage: | German, Sweedish, Dutch, Irish, French, Native American, Japanese |
| The Shoes You Wore Today: | White Strappy Sandles |
| Your Weakness: | Caring too much |
| Your Fears: | Being hurt |
| Your Perfect Pizza: | Cheese and Pepperoni, Thick crust |
| Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: | Getting into some type of routine |
| Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: | Yeah |
| Thoughts First Waking Up: | My baby is SO cute |
| Your Best Physical Feature: | Eyes |
| Your Bedtime: | It varies |
| Your Most Missed Memory: | Spending time with Kathy |
| Pepsi or Coke: | Coke |
| MacDonalds or Burger King: | MacDonalds |
| Single or Group Dates: | Single |
| Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: | Ick |
| Chocolate or Vanilla: | Chocolate |
| Cappuccino or Coffee: | Cappuccino |
| Do you Smoke: | Nope |
| Do you Swear: | Sometimes |
| Do you Sing: | Often |
| Do you Shower Daily: | For the most part |
| Have you Been in Love: | Yes |
| Do you want to go to College: | Yes |
| Do you want to get Married: | Already am |
| Do you belive in yourself: | Not enough |
| Do you get Motion Sickness: | No |
| Do you think you are Attractive: | Sometimes |
| Are you a Health Freak: | No |
| Do you get along with your Parents: | Most of the time |
| Do you like Thunderstorms: | Yes |
| Do you play an Instrument: | No |
| In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: | Yes |
| In the past month have you Smoked: | No |
| In the past month have you been on Drugs: | No |
| In the past month have you gone on a Date: | Yes |
| In the past month have you gone to a Mall: | Yes |
| In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: | No |
| In the past month have you eaten Sushi: | Yes |
| In the past month have you been on Stage: | No |
| In the past month have you been Dumped: | No |
| In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: | No |
| In the past month have you Stolen Anything: | No |
| Ever been Drunk: | Yes |
| Ever been called a Tease: | Yes |
| Ever been Beaten up: | No |
| Ever Shoplifted: | No |
| How do you want to Die: | In my sleep, or some really messed up accident where I die quickly |
| What do you want to be when you Grow Up: | A mom of four and maybe a school teacher |
| What country would you most like to Visit: | Ireland |
| In a Boy/Girl.. | |
| Favourite Eye Color: | Brown |
| Favourite Hair Color: | Brown |
| Short or Long Hair: | Short |
| Height: | Tall (Over 6 Feet) |
| Weight: | 180-190lbs |
| Best Clothing Style: | Casual dress (black khakis, clean tennies, and a t-shirt or button up |
| Number of Drugs I have taken: | 2 |
| Number of CDs I own: | Too many to count right now |
| Number of Piercings: | 3 |
| Number of Tattoos: | 0 |
| Number of things in my Past I Regret: | Too many to count right now |
Wednesday, March 9, 2005
About Me
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Stressing
Yesterday Sam went to look at "motorcycles" and ended up coming home with one. It's a Ninja Z6XR? I think. Anyway it's lime green and really fast. He took me for a short ride to the video store on it. I was okay on the way there, but I prayed for safety the entire ride home. I was terrified. I'm not really a motorbike kind of person. But yeah, it's gonna end up costing us like $16,000.00 at the most, $9,000.00 at the least. But still, Sam makes under $17,000.00 a year. Ugh!!! And I thought he didn't spend enough time at home before.
On top of that I feel like I am coming into a delayed post pardem depression. I think it's too long after my pregnancy to technically call it that, but that's what it feels like. I have been having all of these paranoias and aggressive feelings, not toward the baby, but toward myself. It's like I can't keep the house clean enough, the laundry is never ending, I want to help with the income, but I don't want to lose time spent with my family... :-P
I miss having a best friend under 10 minutes away from me. I've been slowly but surely making more friends out here, but none of them compare to Kathy. I don't want to replace her, I just want someone I can call any time and be completely comfortable with, and get away with when I need to get away. I miss my best buds from VA too. :-(
On a happy note, it was in the mid seventies a few days ago, I layed out by the pool and got a tan, it was awesome. Oh, another happy thing... I submitted a poem to a poetry contest and it's in the semi-finals and people want to publish it in a book! I'm honored. It's so cool.
Austin is three months old now. He can shake a rattle and get on his knees, like he's going to crawl, but he doesn't moves his arms, so he just ends up doing a wheel barrel sort of thing. He can sit for just under twenty seconds, and he's trying to roll over from his back to his front, but he gets stuck on his arm. He's been able to roll over from tummy to back for some time now. I love him!
Recently I began a bible study, actually just last Thursday. There's really no one my age in it, but that's alright, I get along with older people anyway. Plus not too many people my age have kids, so I can relate with people with a few more years than me.
Hopefully my Tricare Prime (The insurance that will fully cover me) kicks in soon, and I can get tested for allergies, and see a psychatrist, and go to the dentist! I think that will make a few things slightly less stressful. :-)
Hope everyone who reads this is doing well, if you're reading it and haven't written in a while, write something! I like to hear about your lives too. And for those of you who do write, keep it up! :-)
On top of that I feel like I am coming into a delayed post pardem depression. I think it's too long after my pregnancy to technically call it that, but that's what it feels like. I have been having all of these paranoias and aggressive feelings, not toward the baby, but toward myself. It's like I can't keep the house clean enough, the laundry is never ending, I want to help with the income, but I don't want to lose time spent with my family... :-P
I miss having a best friend under 10 minutes away from me. I've been slowly but surely making more friends out here, but none of them compare to Kathy. I don't want to replace her, I just want someone I can call any time and be completely comfortable with, and get away with when I need to get away. I miss my best buds from VA too. :-(
On a happy note, it was in the mid seventies a few days ago, I layed out by the pool and got a tan, it was awesome. Oh, another happy thing... I submitted a poem to a poetry contest and it's in the semi-finals and people want to publish it in a book! I'm honored. It's so cool.
Austin is three months old now. He can shake a rattle and get on his knees, like he's going to crawl, but he doesn't moves his arms, so he just ends up doing a wheel barrel sort of thing. He can sit for just under twenty seconds, and he's trying to roll over from his back to his front, but he gets stuck on his arm. He's been able to roll over from tummy to back for some time now. I love him!
Recently I began a bible study, actually just last Thursday. There's really no one my age in it, but that's alright, I get along with older people anyway. Plus not too many people my age have kids, so I can relate with people with a few more years than me.
Hopefully my Tricare Prime (The insurance that will fully cover me) kicks in soon, and I can get tested for allergies, and see a psychatrist, and go to the dentist! I think that will make a few things slightly less stressful. :-)
Hope everyone who reads this is doing well, if you're reading it and haven't written in a while, write something! I like to hear about your lives too. And for those of you who do write, keep it up! :-)
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Me Time
I painted my finger and toe nails tonight. My fingernails are a funky purplish green swirl and my toes are light blue, purple, red, dark blue and green. My birthday was fun. I think it topped last years, which is awesome. Last year I was sort of down because a birthday without family doesn't even seem like a real birthday, no cake, no presents... just an empty feeling. This year was different though, no family, and no presents (on the actual day) BUT I did get a cake and a few cards and a really nice boquet of flowers. :-)
I'm going to the introduction of a bible study tomorrow morning. I should be sleeping, but I slept in the morning when I really didn't need to so I'm awake right now. Austin is screaming, but he's fed and changed and I don't think he has gas... He just really likes to be held. And I really like holding him so I'm not sure how to break him of the habbit.
Sam's gone tonight. He's got duty, and tomorrow he has ENDOC--I don't know if I wrote that right, but oh well, I've never been in the Navy so I don't have to know how to spell it. It's the first time in a long time that I have sincerely missed him when he's been away. Things have been nice lately. But every time I get comfortable with things going well they turn around on me... :P Ugh.
I haven't had to babysit at all this week. Lexie's dad just got back from Iraq and he's spending time with her. I've been enjoying my break. It's not like I watch her a lot, but I enjoy having more free time. Unfortunately I also enjoy having money to do things, so I have to do a little work. I was thinking about applying at Subway, but I'd like to see Sam once in a while, and I think that I'd probably really miss Austin if I got an outside job. I'm undecided yet.
Austin will be three months old tomorrow. My scale says he's 16 pounds.. such a big boy. His newest thing is squealing at the top of his lungs for the heck of it. It's cute and yet irritating. Reguardless I love him like crazy.
I'm going to the introduction of a bible study tomorrow morning. I should be sleeping, but I slept in the morning when I really didn't need to so I'm awake right now. Austin is screaming, but he's fed and changed and I don't think he has gas... He just really likes to be held. And I really like holding him so I'm not sure how to break him of the habbit.
Sam's gone tonight. He's got duty, and tomorrow he has ENDOC--I don't know if I wrote that right, but oh well, I've never been in the Navy so I don't have to know how to spell it. It's the first time in a long time that I have sincerely missed him when he's been away. Things have been nice lately. But every time I get comfortable with things going well they turn around on me... :P Ugh.
I haven't had to babysit at all this week. Lexie's dad just got back from Iraq and he's spending time with her. I've been enjoying my break. It's not like I watch her a lot, but I enjoy having more free time. Unfortunately I also enjoy having money to do things, so I have to do a little work. I was thinking about applying at Subway, but I'd like to see Sam once in a while, and I think that I'd probably really miss Austin if I got an outside job. I'm undecided yet.
Austin will be three months old tomorrow. My scale says he's 16 pounds.. such a big boy. His newest thing is squealing at the top of his lungs for the heck of it. It's cute and yet irritating. Reguardless I love him like crazy.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
This Week
Sam and I were suppose to go up north this weekend to visit his family but he had a Shaklee meeting he was suppose to go to on Saturday so we canceled. He ended up not going, but the weather was sort of crappy anyway so I was alright with it.
On Friday night he had one of his friends over. Omigosh was this guy funny. He graduated the same year as me and used to do drugs. So he's a little messed up because of that, and he admits it. He's got a big heart though. He's engaged to a 16 year old that still lives in his home state of Iowa. Anyway he and Sam played video games all night and most of the next day.
Saturday night Sam was going to take me to hitch, but his cousin called us from Santa Barbara where she and a couple of friends had planned on staying... they couldn't find a hotel, so they decided to come and visit us. So we skipped the movie and went home to clean for their visit. While they were over Sam invited a couple of buddies to join the fun. I was ticked off for a while at first so I stayed in the bedroom and played on the computer. Then I got lonely so I put Austin to bed and drank a little. That lightened my spirits and I wasn't upset anymore. I had a lot of fun talking to Sam's cousin and her friends. It sort of made me wish I was still in college/tech school though. Or it at least made me wish I had more of a social life. The girls left in the early morning and the guy who had stayed the night before stayed the night again, he didn't live until like six pm. After that I think Sam just went on the computer.
Valentine's day went better than I expected. I woke up with a valentine from the girl I babysit for outside my door, my dad called in the afternoon, and Sam brought me home a sweet card and some chocolates. Lexie, the little girl I watch behaved better than usual, which was wonderful, and Austin was great as usual. After Sam went to bed I couldn't fall asleep so I played with Austin and watched The Notebook. It was a really good movie.
Today I have no plans. My scrap booking lady brought some stuff over this morning that she had ordered for me a couple of weeks ago and Sam came home early and crashed on the couch. I was thinking about making him steak for dinner. I wanted to yesterday, but he told me to wait until I wasn't babysitting. Tonight he has a Shaklee meeting and tomorrow I get to go to one in L.A.
Shaklee is some company that sells a bunch of stuff. Sam got us involved in it because he wants extra money for a motorcycle, but I don't think he's too interested in it. I'm not greatly interested in it, but that might change once I learn more about it.
On Friday night he had one of his friends over. Omigosh was this guy funny. He graduated the same year as me and used to do drugs. So he's a little messed up because of that, and he admits it. He's got a big heart though. He's engaged to a 16 year old that still lives in his home state of Iowa. Anyway he and Sam played video games all night and most of the next day.
Saturday night Sam was going to take me to hitch, but his cousin called us from Santa Barbara where she and a couple of friends had planned on staying... they couldn't find a hotel, so they decided to come and visit us. So we skipped the movie and went home to clean for their visit. While they were over Sam invited a couple of buddies to join the fun. I was ticked off for a while at first so I stayed in the bedroom and played on the computer. Then I got lonely so I put Austin to bed and drank a little. That lightened my spirits and I wasn't upset anymore. I had a lot of fun talking to Sam's cousin and her friends. It sort of made me wish I was still in college/tech school though. Or it at least made me wish I had more of a social life. The girls left in the early morning and the guy who had stayed the night before stayed the night again, he didn't live until like six pm. After that I think Sam just went on the computer.
Valentine's day went better than I expected. I woke up with a valentine from the girl I babysit for outside my door, my dad called in the afternoon, and Sam brought me home a sweet card and some chocolates. Lexie, the little girl I watch behaved better than usual, which was wonderful, and Austin was great as usual. After Sam went to bed I couldn't fall asleep so I played with Austin and watched The Notebook. It was a really good movie.
Today I have no plans. My scrap booking lady brought some stuff over this morning that she had ordered for me a couple of weeks ago and Sam came home early and crashed on the couch. I was thinking about making him steak for dinner. I wanted to yesterday, but he told me to wait until I wasn't babysitting. Tonight he has a Shaklee meeting and tomorrow I get to go to one in L.A.
Shaklee is some company that sells a bunch of stuff. Sam got us involved in it because he wants extra money for a motorcycle, but I don't think he's too interested in it. I'm not greatly interested in it, but that might change once I learn more about it.
Saturday, February 5, 2005
Good News
I think I use my journal for venting too often so I've decided to write a message of good news this time. Today... well actually yesterday afternoon I took a ride to meet my scrap booking lady, Lynne and I got to see a little more of the town I live in. Anyway, it is far more gorgeous than I had ever imagined. The entire town is nestled in coastal hills. There are tons of flowers and orchards and there are so many different kinds of trees and cacti. As far as wild life goes I've seen Prarie Dogs, Squirrels and several different types of birds. I know there are also Coyotes, and who knows what else...
So, Sam is letting me play with a little bit of our tax return money and I've decided to spend some of it on scrap booking materials. Hence the new "scrap booking lady" Lynne. Lynne is a wonderfully sweet woman with five children. (Leslie, 14, Ellen, 12, Sarah, 8, Jack, 5, and Sam, 1) The two oldest girls look like clones of their mother and the little boys are SO adorable. The middle girl was at a friends so I didn't get the chance to meet her, but I plan on attending some scrap booking workshops and I will more than likely see her at one of those. Or perhaps I might see her at church, which leads me to my next subject.
Lynne and her family go to a Presbyterian church near where I live. I'm not exactly Presbyterian, if I had to call myself something I'd be Lutheran or Methodist, but I can adapt, and going to a church where I know someone more than myself has great appeal. I think Lynne is a really neat person and her family seems very nice so I don't imagine that "her" church would be bad. I guess I'll see how it goes for a while.
Sam has been back home this week. Our anniversary is Sunday and I'm really curious as to how it will work out. I'm really to anxious about the whole thing and it only stresses me out so I know that I need to relax. Things have been rough since he's been home. It doesn't seem like we've found solutions to any of our problems, therefore we keep having the same problems again and again. Maybe I should say I keep having the same problems again and again, I really don't think Sam cares about much. And I know he doesn't give as much thought to the things he cares about as I do to mine. Hopefully we can find a common ground and things can be peaceful.
Tomorrow I am going to go to the gym with my friend Rachel. We went to a club last week Wednesday and met a couple of cool guys and I stayed in contact with the one I danced with. The two of them might meet us at the gym tomorrow. I'm glad I actually found someone to be friends with. I might be naive for thinking that I can be friends with a guy and he's not going to want anymore, but Joey (that's his name) seems really understanding that I have a husband and a child and I that I am doing everything in my power to make things work with my husband. Joey is a Marine that recently got back from Iraq and is going to be out of the Marine Corps within the next week. He's originally from Texas... Lynne is originally from Indiana.
Tonight I talked with my "friend" Russell from Blockbuster. He's a really nice guy and we bumped into eachother outside of the video store once, it was actually quite odd. We met at the county clerks office in San Marcos, about 40 minutes from where we live. Anyway, all the people at Blockbuster are nice. If I wanted an outside job I'd definately apply there.
I suppose I should go. I plan on getting up and ready to go to the gym in six and a half hours.
So, Sam is letting me play with a little bit of our tax return money and I've decided to spend some of it on scrap booking materials. Hence the new "scrap booking lady" Lynne. Lynne is a wonderfully sweet woman with five children. (Leslie, 14, Ellen, 12, Sarah, 8, Jack, 5, and Sam, 1) The two oldest girls look like clones of their mother and the little boys are SO adorable. The middle girl was at a friends so I didn't get the chance to meet her, but I plan on attending some scrap booking workshops and I will more than likely see her at one of those. Or perhaps I might see her at church, which leads me to my next subject.
Lynne and her family go to a Presbyterian church near where I live. I'm not exactly Presbyterian, if I had to call myself something I'd be Lutheran or Methodist, but I can adapt, and going to a church where I know someone more than myself has great appeal. I think Lynne is a really neat person and her family seems very nice so I don't imagine that "her" church would be bad. I guess I'll see how it goes for a while.
Sam has been back home this week. Our anniversary is Sunday and I'm really curious as to how it will work out. I'm really to anxious about the whole thing and it only stresses me out so I know that I need to relax. Things have been rough since he's been home. It doesn't seem like we've found solutions to any of our problems, therefore we keep having the same problems again and again. Maybe I should say I keep having the same problems again and again, I really don't think Sam cares about much. And I know he doesn't give as much thought to the things he cares about as I do to mine. Hopefully we can find a common ground and things can be peaceful.
Tomorrow I am going to go to the gym with my friend Rachel. We went to a club last week Wednesday and met a couple of cool guys and I stayed in contact with the one I danced with. The two of them might meet us at the gym tomorrow. I'm glad I actually found someone to be friends with. I might be naive for thinking that I can be friends with a guy and he's not going to want anymore, but Joey (that's his name) seems really understanding that I have a husband and a child and I that I am doing everything in my power to make things work with my husband. Joey is a Marine that recently got back from Iraq and is going to be out of the Marine Corps within the next week. He's originally from Texas... Lynne is originally from Indiana.
Tonight I talked with my "friend" Russell from Blockbuster. He's a really nice guy and we bumped into eachother outside of the video store once, it was actually quite odd. We met at the county clerks office in San Marcos, about 40 minutes from where we live. Anyway, all the people at Blockbuster are nice. If I wanted an outside job I'd definately apply there.
I suppose I should go. I plan on getting up and ready to go to the gym in six and a half hours.
**EDIT:(8/16/10)
Laughing my behind off at how naive I was. WOW!!! I'll try to give myself a little credit by mentioning I was just under 20 years old and still working to be the best wife possible. --I don't even remember the "boys" I mentioned here. My jaw dropped actually when I read that I stayed in contact with someone I met at the club my first time going out. I must have just got the number b/c no calls were made and Rachel and I definitely didn't meet up with anyone at the gym. I don't even think we ever went to the gym together. *END EDIT
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Life is Still Crazy.
My life lately has been nuts. It started with the new year I swear. 2005 was just not meant to start out right. A series of events led up to the separation of Sam and I as of a week ago. He's been living in the barracks and just Thursday he said he wanted to work things out. BUT I didn't hear from him at all yesterday, granted he had duty, but I know he has time to at least call on duty. Oh well. Since the separation I have made a few new friends, now along with my older friends they are telling me I deserve better and yadda, yadda, yadda. Same story always coming from a different person. Most of the time I know what I want, so what other people say isn't really going to help me too much when it comes to them giving me advice. I always need to figure things out on my own. Right now I don't really know what I want. It's not exactly that though, it's more like the things I want conflict with eachother and that just seems to make everything all the more complicated.
Anyway, Austin got his first immunization shots on Thursday. He got really mad and has been pretty sleepy ever since. He's so precious. I'm really glad I have him. He is Happiness. Even though crap goes on, none of it seems horrible, because he exists. It's nice that way.
I'm starting to get used to it out here, I miss Virginia though... Someday I might move back, even if it's not until I'm really old and Sam has died, or something like that. I liked it there.
Hopefully this bad start to the new year will end when February comes around. I sure do hope so cuz in Feb. I've got my first year wedding anniversary with Sam, the 2nd year of our first meeting, the second year of us "going out", Valentine's Day, and my birthday.
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Anyway, Austin got his first immunization shots on Thursday. He got really mad and has been pretty sleepy ever since. He's so precious. I'm really glad I have him. He is Happiness. Even though crap goes on, none of it seems horrible, because he exists. It's nice that way.
I'm starting to get used to it out here, I miss Virginia though... Someday I might move back, even if it's not until I'm really old and Sam has died, or something like that. I liked it there.
Hopefully this bad start to the new year will end when February comes around. I sure do hope so cuz in Feb. I've got my first year wedding anniversary with Sam, the 2nd year of our first meeting, the second year of us "going out", Valentine's Day, and my birthday.
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mychrysalis wrote:Jan. 29th, 2005 03:16 pm (local)
I'm sorry you are having such a rough year. I won't try to give you advice, becasue you know what I'd say anyway. And I'm glad Austin makes you happy. Thanks for the pics. He is too cute! I miss you!
Wednesday, January 5, 2005
I AM (at one of my) HOME(s)!
So, I am back in Wisconsin at the moment. Yesterday I got to San Diego Airport at about 7:10am. My flight was suppose to be at 9:10am but it was delayed until about 10:00am. I got to Denver at 1:00pm in a new time zone. My flight there was suppose to be at 3:05pm. However, it was behind by about four hours. I got to Milwaukee a little after 10:00pm. So far not too much has happened. I've actually been by myself all day due to people working and going to school, but my little brother Isaiah came home about half an hour ago and is doing homework now. Sam is not going to be deployed! I'm happy about it, but I had come to terms with him leaving, now I'll just have to deal with a six month deployment in the future.
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rossbert wrote:
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rossbert wrote:Jan. 5th, 2005 05:09 pm (local)
Contact
What is your current cell phone number?
I'm at (920)960-3986 look me up before you go back.
I'm at (920)960-3986 look me up before you go back.
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