Fall Cleaning?

I've been laying in bed for an hour and a half AT LEAST thinking. I haven't really been sleeping like a baby since having the baby, and after finding out about the DS it's been even less.

Meanwhile... I start praying, it's my "now I lay me" prayer, the one I said with my mom every night when she tucked me into bed, until I was 14, yeah that one. Anyway, I think about all the people I want God to bless. It's a long list. I truly care about SO many people, people I've never met, people I'll never meet. I care. My mind wanders, I start thinking about myself a little bit, things I... things my family needs. Then I think about those who have less. I know I am blessed.

In the process of thinking of my needs and what I have to give, or to sell in a rummage sale I think about all the "useless" things I have that I don't use. This is pretty much just CDs, DVDs and books I know I won't read again. I may think that I'll want to read them again, but reading books more than once is not something I typically do. Dunno why.

In my mental cleaning out of DVDs and CDs it goes through my head what I want to keep. What lifts me up? What message do I want the music I listen to give my children. It's not a hard question for me to answer, especially since my collection of Christian CDs and DVDs is a good size.

I think about what it will feel like to let go of some of that other stuff that I like, that touched me at one point, but that would probably benefit me to let go of. My D12 CD comes to mind... Why do I like Eminem anyway? :-P Probably his RAW emotion. The way he shouts and cusses, probably the way I want to some time, but I practice self restraint. Eminem lets it out for me.

We'll see what I do, I feel like cleaning things out of my life, it always feels nice to let some of that old stuff go, helps me know that I'm still me without it, even though I've clung to it at times.



Sorry if I don't make sense... like I said, lack of sleep.