april 12- sam slapped me (says he was sleeping... and i sorta believe him, but i'm not positive) he was sleeping and i tried to wake him up, he slapped me, then pushed me down... he said i slapped him and then he pushed me down, reguardless, i was pretty upset, i called the police cuz i sorta felt like i was being attacked and i was scared. sam went to jail for a few days.
we got in touch through his mom and sorta sorted things out, but i never really got over it. (might come from seein' my mom be abused the first five years of my life)
Quick let me mention that from about March 23 til the 12th Sam and I had been getting along great... I actually sorta started to get a crush on him around Easter time, although as I explained it to him I felt like I was starting to like the ex of a best friend and it was really an akward, uncomfortable type of liking that I didn'[t know how to deal with.
As of the 6th of May it became more clear than it ever has before that I don't want to, and shouldn't be with Sam. On the 7th we mutually decided to separate. He's sorta been annoying, in a sense, about it. He said he only agreed to separating because he figured I would miss him and ask him to come back... The thing is I don't miss him. I very much enjoy my freedom, and... yeah.
I'm a little worried I won't like my freedom so much when I have to start taking care of all my own bills. (after a legal separation is filed or we file for divorce) I know I need to take everything one day at a time, and I think it may be slightly easier while I'm in Wisconsin. (That's tomorrow evening!!!)
While I'm in Wisconsin I'm hoping to get a "Y" pass for a month, and I would love to be able to take a few dance classes. My first weekend is pretty much taken up already with my dad's wedding and cousin's confirmation, and I'm going to Ohio the second weekend... lol, Walleye Weekend is the fourth weekend, but the 3rd weekend and weekdays... I've got nothin. I feel a little bad, I have no idea where I'm going to stay while I'm back. I'm hoping family just lets me crash. (like grandparents and aunts and uncles.) I'm also hoping Austin deals with everything okay.
He's getting so big, and he's a little accident prone. Makes me worry like crazy!
Okay, I guess that's all for now. There's more I would write about but it feels like I should be doing separate blogs for each of the separate things I want to write about, and I'm not that inspired at the moment. :-P :-)
COMMENTS:
rossbert wrote:
May. 16th, 2007 09:07 am (local)
Let me know when you're looking and I'll hook you up with the schedule for the studio.
nayflower wrote:
May. 16th, 2007 11:02 am (local)
Hi, Dearie! I am back in Wisconsin as well. . .give me a call on my cell, as I'm not at my parents house :) I hope we get to hang out at least once!
**IN RETROSPECT(4/10/12):
This was the day I concieved Nayeli.
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