A Blog on my Blogger... Go Fig.

Hello! (*listening for echos*)
Well, if anybody's out there, I'm still here. ;-)
Someday I may blog with a passion I once did. I may be my fully open self again and know what I want and what I don't want and be willing to share it with those I care about who I know/feel care about me as well. :-D Until then I'll post some blah stuff that I feel inspired to blahg about. lol. Okay, laughed at my own joke.. I'm so cool. :-P

Meanwhile.
I watched documentaries this morning. :-P One was "The Human Face"-John Cleese was the narrated/main person. It was very interesting, all about how we need face to face contact and how our faces say so much more than our words, which I already knew, but it's not so bad hearing it again... especially while it seems I'm glued to my computer chair. :-P

The other documentary I watched was given in a somewhat, alright, a REALLY boring manner, but it had a lot of good points and gave me some confidence and things to work on as a parent. It was called, "Parenting:Becoming a Better Parent."

Yes, yes... then while browsing through netflix I found some more documentaries I am interested in seeing... however Jeremy is going to cancel our netflix soon and then I won't have all these instant views at my disposal. We have free cable, but there aren't as many documentaries and I can't always just watch that while the kids are sleeping, which is my preffered method... That way I have more time for them when we're all awake together.

My sleep schedule has been insane lately, ie. 2-5am, then 9am-12pm... again 5-8pm... then 12am-4am... and yesterday it was 3-5pm and again 11-... 7:30am. A "NORMAL" NIGHT! WoW!! I didn't think it was possible. And I feel great today!!! I hope it becomes a trend.

Hmmm... Think I'm gonna post this to my myspace as well, it's been a zillion years since I blogged anything decent there. See? That's what happens when I finally have something to write about... Not so personal I only want to share it w/ a couple of people. Someday my friends, someday. :-P

Love to all! Peace and good tidings. ;-)

Getting to Know Me Better

If any of my readers need reading material, I am moving all my old Livejounal stuff to this blog... I'm putting it in the date I wrote it out there, so you'll have to look back into 2004, as that's when I started blogging. I may do the same with my old myspace blogs. It'll be nice to have everything in one place, and see where I have been, and some of the things that led me to where I am. ;-)

sometimes when life looks the best, it's the worst.

(just thought of it due to an old friends post... it makes sense to me.)

If you don't know... I'm 26 weeks pregnant, almost 27 weeks. It's a boy. Probably gonna name him Kheaven. Not posting a lot about it online, sadly b/c I don't want my ex, who I'm still not divorced from... :-S... to harrass me.

I work at Sears Portrait Studio... may be shooting my 1st wedding for Aymz Photography at the end of August... doing a co-worker @ Dillons Sr. Pix this summer... and two juniors are waiting to see what I do for Kristen and want to have me to their pix too possibly. :-) Fun, Fun!!!

So addicted...

I admit, I'm addicted to organic food and snacks. The thing that bugs me is that I never used to eat snacks, and now that I've becomce accostumed to the organic section at Dillons I don't feel "guilty" for eating the snacks I find there. I am still fairly small for your average person who is six months pregnant, and I haven't had significant weight gain. I am gaining healthily. I am also very active. I think I have more muscle mass now than I did when I became pregnant. Yayyy for summer!

I'm also somewhat addicted to working lately. Okay, it's not the WoRk I'm addicted to, it's the paycheck that comes the next week. It feels so nice to be somewhat carefree about spending. If I want something I get it, and I'm not worried. I have a feeling it will be very short lived, but I don't remember having this much peace about finances since high school.

Less than a week til vacation. YiPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

There will be more to this...

I have a lot to do today, but I plan on writing some other things on this subject.
Help the Earth

Names and Other Things

Jeremy and I have been thinking of baby names we like. A week or so ago we decided for a girl it's probably going to be Jemma Mae. We both like rocks and fossils and gems are rocks... Also, one of the movies we "watched together" when we lived far away from one another was Fools Gold, and there is a character named Jemma in that. The other thing is that my nickname for Jeremy, at least on my phone, has been Jem. It works on a number of levels. May is the month we started dating and Mae is the middle name of Jeremy's mom and grandma, and his great grandma's middle name is Mae.

We had a more difficult time figuring out our boy name. So far we both like Otis Eaven. (Eaven is heaven without the h) Otis means wealth, which I find ironic since gems can be valuable/have wealth, so maybe it's meant to be. The only thing I worry about is if it's a boy and we name it Otis and it turns out to be chunky and have man boobs other kids might call him Otits. Or if he has acne Ozits. :-S I would hope that nobody would be that mean, but some kids can be.

Okay, changing subjects... I am getting a Pentax K10 with two flashes, a remote cable, some SD cards, and some other stuff. It's used but like new. :-)

The story is, I was working at Dillons and this guy came through ever so slightly frazzled and said that he just got done printing off like 300 pictures. I said, "I want to be a photographer!" Then I mentioned I did just get a job at Sears Portrait Studio but would like to be able to work outside and on location more someday. We talked about some other things for a few moments and then he said, "Well, I'm selling my Pentax K10 and some flashes for $500.00, if you're interested call me." He gave me his card. I looked some things up online and figured if the camera is in good condition this is a total steal.

I did some figuring and with my tax returns I will have enough to buy this camera and pay off all of my debt. I called him and found more out about the camera. It all sounded so great. I asked why he was practically giving it away and he said that before he had talked to me he wasn't even thinking about selling it, but he was so frustrated with work that day and has two other digital and two other film cameras. He also said that if he had thought about it more before throwing me a number he would have tried to get $800-900 for it. But he also said that he and his wife are the church going type and that he gave me $500 as an offer so he was going to stick to it. He also said he would hold the camera for me until I get my tax returns. :-D Yayyyyyy!!!

Oooh... I get to go to Wisconsin in June. I'm super excited. It'll only be for a week, but I'm so happy Sears is going to let me have off.