Life is Still Crazy.

My life lately has been nuts. It started with the new year I swear. 2005 was just not meant to start out right. A series of events led up to the separation of Sam and I as of a week ago. He's been living in the barracks and just Thursday he said he wanted to work things out. BUT I didn't hear from him at all yesterday, granted he had duty, but I know he has time to at least call on duty. Oh well. Since the separation I have made a few new friends, now along with my older friends they are telling me I deserve better and yadda, yadda, yadda. Same story always coming from a different person. Most of the time I know what I want, so what other people say isn't really going to help me too much when it comes to them giving me advice. I always need to figure things out on my own. Right now I don't really know what I want. It's not exactly that though, it's more like the things I want conflict with eachother and that just seems to make everything all the more complicated. 

Anyway, Austin got his first immunization shots on Thursday. He got really mad and has been pretty sleepy ever since. He's so precious. I'm really glad I have him. He is Happiness. Even though crap goes on, none of it seems horrible, because he exists. It's nice that way. 

I'm starting to get used to it out here, I miss Virginia though... Someday I might move back, even if it's not until I'm really old and Sam has died, or something like that. I liked it there. 

Hopefully this bad start to the new year will end when February comes around. I sure do hope so cuz in Feb. I've got my first year wedding anniversary with Sam, the 2nd year of our first meeting, the second year of us "going out", Valentine's Day, and my birthday.


COMMENTS:
mychrysalis wrote:

Jan. 29th, 2005 03:16 pm (local)

I'm sorry you are having such a rough year. I won't try to give you advice, becasue you know what I'd say anyway. And I'm glad Austin makes you happy. Thanks for the pics. He is too cute! I miss you!

I AM (at one of my) HOME(s)!

So, I am back in Wisconsin at the moment. Yesterday I got to San Diego Airport at about 7:10am. My flight was suppose to be at 9:10am but it was delayed until about 10:00am. I got to Denver at 1:00pm in a new time zone. My flight there was suppose to be at 3:05pm. However, it was behind by about four hours. I got to Milwaukee a little after 10:00pm. So far not too much has happened. I've actually been by myself all day due to people working and going to school, but my little brother Isaiah came home about half an hour ago and is doing homework now. Sam is not going to be deployed! I'm happy about it, but I had come to terms with him leaving, now I'll just have to deal with a six month deployment in the future.


COMMENTS:
rossbert wrote:

Jan. 5th, 2005 05:09 pm (local)

Contact

What is your current cell phone number?
I'm at (920)960-3986 look me up before you go back.

vivrelavie wrote:

Jan. 6th, 2005 01:05 pm (local)

Awww cute! Adorable!! <3 your icon

Ugh!

I'm coming down with a cold, it's icky. I'm just praying that I don't get Austin sick. On our way home from Northern California, Sam and I got into a small car accident. We were crossing an overpass and a car cut us off. It was raining so the roads were wet. Sam hit the brakes and told me to hold on. The brakes locked up and Sam counter steered us toward and enbankment, we went up it spun around and cam back down. The car almost flipped but we got lucky. Sam and Austin were fine. I got a slight whiplash. Today I found out that Sam may get deployed next Friday. I'll be in Wisconsin when he finds out for sure on Tuesday and I won't be back until after he leaves if he leaves. I'm not too happy about that but there's really nothing I can do. I'm excited to see my family and friends at least.


COMMENTS:
rossbert wrote:

Dec. 31st, 2004 08:32 am (local)

Poor girl.

Look me up when you're around?

All the Madness!

Hello everyone! Incase you haven't heard I had Austin Eric on Thanksgiving. He is a handsome little man and I love him very much. Sam has been great with him, and that's quite a relief. Anyway, right now I don't have much time. My baby is an angel and I love being a mommy. Happy Holidays!

Gone for So Long.

I left Virginia a month ago tomorrow. That is crazy to me. I miss my friends there and I miss the environment. Sure there were gunshots once in a while and weird older men would follow me home from the grocery store, but around here there are gunshots. Granted I'm pretty sure that they're not meant to hit another persom. They're merely for show. Still, I was used to where I was and now I'm not there anymore. And now that I'm starting to become familiar with where I am now I am about to be uprooted again. This time it might not be as traumatic... I'll still be in Cali and the weather is supposedly going to be nicer where I'm going. Oh, and then I can remind myself of the fact that as soon as I start to settle down in my new apartment I'm going to have a baby and everything will be crazy again. What fun this all is. The past few days in Forestville have been quite gloomy. I'm looking forward to when there is sunshine again. I think I'll wait til I have a little more of an upbeat mood to write anymore. I'm just venting. It's great to be able to live different places and learn about our country. Sometimes I just miss stability.

I am what I am.

You're Lili St. Cyr!


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Sorry, my husbands out, I'm semi stuck and this looked like a fun quiz.  My brother in law took me out for ice cream tonight and I got chocolate delight in a waffle cone.  The rest of my night is going to consist of filling out an apartment application and doing my lesson for bible study tomorrow.  Tomorrow I get to go to bible study and I have a doctor's appointment and I may get my temporary driver's license for CA.  We'll see.

In Cali and Doing Fine... (For the Most Part)

Hey to those of you I haven't said hey to in a while. I'm writing a rushed entry right now because it's my 14 year old brother-in-laws bed time and the computer is in his room. Anyway, the trip to Cali was eventful and long and all that fun stuff and since I've been here my baby has been a royal pain. I've been in the hospital three different times and I have a second doctor's appointment since I've been here tomorrow. Happy birthday Alicia and Julia if you're reading this. I'm sorry I couldn't call anyone. Sam's cell is usually highly guarded and out of my reach, my cell's not in service right now and I don't want to rack up the phone bill for Sam's parents. But yeah, the most I can say right now about the baby is that he seems to want to come early and everyone is doing everything they can to hold him off so I'm on modified bed rest and a bunch of medicines. Oh what fun it all is. I'll write more as soon as I can.