Can't Sleep

It's like four in the morning and I haven't been to bed yet. I didn't get up any later than normal this morning, I have no idea what my problem is. It might be that I'm not at home,(I'm babysitting.)or maybe it's something else. I dunno. Last night, or two nights ago.. I went out with some new friends that I made who are from Wisconsin. They have a six month old son! Anyway, we went bowling and they played pool with some of their other friends. It was a really fun group and was the start of me craving more social interaction than I've had for quite some time. Last Wednesday I went out to a club with my friend Rachel. That was also pretty fun. It was my third time in a club and I'm getting a little more comfortable there. I sort of think it's ridiculous to pay $15 to dance and hang out, but oh well, it's fun! I made a friend at the club. He's a 20 year old marine from Philadelphia. He wants to work in an embassy someday, I think that's cool. Other than that I met a very attractive 24 year old security guard from Arkansas. His name is Brian and his birthday is June 20th. I like getting to know people. My newest friend around the complex is Theresa. She is twenty and has a 17 month old daughter. She and her husband are from Texas. When I was bowling I met two girls and three guys. One of the "girls" is due to have a baby May 5th or 6th and the other one has three little girls. Summer, the pregnant one is going to name her son Fox. My friend Russell from the video store called the other day and invited me to hang out with him and his wife.(She's due in August.) It ended up not working out, but I'm sure we'll get together some time. I've fallen behind in my bible study work book. I've been doing a lot of babysitting and socializing. It's all very nice, I enjoy it, but it would be nice if I could get my bible study "homework" done too. Sam and I are doing alright. We recently had some issues, but we seem to have solved them, or at least forgotten them for the time being, and it only took us like three days as opposed to a week and a half or more. We might actually be making progress, that's refreshing. Austin can scoot backwards and today he went forwards and I yayed him and then he went backwards again and cancelled out the distance he had made. He's gonna be crawling too soon for me. If I find free time this week Sam and I are going to go get a crib finally. I'm excited for that! Well, I should probably try again to sleep. The little boy I babysit for is going to be waking up in less than three hours now... Then I get to babysit Lexie, the 12 year old from 2:30pm-10:00pm and Alex, the 9 month old that I'm watching right now from 6:30pm-12:00am tomorrow. Wowza. Fun stuff. Bye for now!


COMMENTS:
summer_mommy wrote:

Apr. 19th, 2005 10:19 am (local)

More socializing is probably a good thing. It seems to me that you're probably doing a pretty good job of finding potential socializers. But goodness -- is everyone there either pregnant or already a parent? lol. Too cute. Lots of playmates for little Austin! Yay for him almost crawling!

Amy's ABCs

A - Age you got your first kiss: 5

B - Band listening to right now: mozart (it's coming from a baby toy) 

C - Crush: wouldn't you like to know? 

D- dads name: Tim 

E-easiest person to talk to: best friend

F - Favorite bands at the moment: Jesse McCartney, Kelly Clarkson, Avril Lavine... I know, they're not bands, but they're what I like.

G - Gummy worms or gummy bears? Worms. 

H - Hometown: Fond du Lac 

I - Instruments: my voice

J- Junior High: Sabish Junior High

K - Kids: little boy(Austin Eric Green) 

L - Longest car ride ever: Virginia to Cali 

M - Mom's name: Penny

N - Nicknames: Aymz, Amers, Aym Bop, Duckie, Short Stuff, Sweet Thang, Amy no namey 

O - One wish: A Happy Home Life

P - Phobia: Being Rejected

Q - Quote: "Above the clouds it's a bright and sunny day." Amy Green 

R - Reason to smile: Baby's laughter 

S - Song you sang last: Love is a Battlefield

T - Time you woke up [today]: 8am and 11am 

U - Unknown fact about me: I'm sure there's a bunch but there's a reason they're unknown

V - Vegetable you hate: all of them

W - Worst habit(s): picking scabs, drinking soda, not knowing when to shut up

X - X-rays you've had: for my lungs having to do with my asthma, and then the ultra sounds during my pregnancy 

Y - Yummy food: new england clam chowder, pizza and tuna casserole

Z - Zodiac sign: Picses

Somewhat Debacherous You are 46% pure

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 13% on purity

Link: The 100 Point Sexual Purity Test written by ocicat on Ok Cupid

COMMENTS:
mychrysalis wrote:

Apr. 13th, 2005 06:52 pm (local)

really?

Did you include the bisexuality and the threesome? 'Cause I'll be hurt if you forget! :) Love you!
yoshi_rose wrote:

Apr. 14th, 2005 08:42 pm (local)

Yep

Of course I did. :-P I can't believe I'm more pure than you! What have you been up to lately?

Neglected...

I'm feeling neglected which is never any fun. Sam was gone all weekend, Friday morning to Monday morning, and had work all day Monday. When he got home from work he pretty much shut himself in the bedroom... I was around him for an hour, and that was just watching parts of Lion King 1 1/2. Today he worked late, came home, didn't come in for like an hour and a half after he got here, then popped in DVDs and shushed me every time I tryed to start a conversation. After the movies he got on the computer and I tried to talk to him, but every conversation was a dead topic. It seems like no matter how hard I try or don't try I can't get him to communicate.

Alright so, Sam won't communicate with me and I don't live by anyone that I've known for an extended period of time and the person that I'm closest to out here other than Sam is in the process of being on a two week vacation, so I'm going nuts with no sense of intimacy with anyone on the "talking in person" level. The phone is one thing, real live human interaction is another thing completely. 

I truley dislike this lonely feeling. The less attention Sam gives me the more I yearn for someone who will completely adore me... That makes sense and yet I'd think that over time I'd get used to being ignored and brushed aside. *Sigh* I dunno, maybe I'll figure out how to achieve happiness without Sam constantly being nice to me, still it would be nice to be shown some affection, I mean, I'm his wife, right? A hug a day? A kiss a day? I dunno. Maybe for him that's asking to much. :-P


COMMENTS:
summer_mommy wrote:

Mar. 16th, 2005 09:38 am (local)

I think for a lot of guys that's asking too much, unfortunately -- especially for the communication part. For some reason guys are intimidated by talking. Why? It's such a simple thing! Don't worry. It annoys the crap outta me when Chon does that too. Maybe someday they will learn to be nice to us!!! Take care and I hope you find some good interaction soon, hun. *hugs*

mychrysalis wrote:

Mar. 16th, 2005 11:33 am (local)

I'm sorry Sam is still being difficult. Always remember that you do have the right to be happy and if you feel you need affection, then you do. You never have to settle for less than you need. With that in mind, I'm sending big "Auntie Alicia" hugs your way.

vivrelavie wrote:

Mar. 16th, 2005 06:09 pm (local)

*hugs* Have you ever gone to Boards.WeddingChannel.Com? They have a Newlywed (and even for not-so-newly weds like me) board. In that board, there is a sub board for emotional support. I think you should go there. I don't want to be a downer, but Amy, it isn't fair for you to feel that way so often. Once and awhile is one thing, but I am worried about you. I know we never knew each other too well, but I still care. Please visit that site. Have you two talked about marital counseling? It might help open the path to more communication and affection. It's great for good days and bad. :)

*hugs* again.

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COMMENTS:
rossbert wrote:

Mar. 14th, 2005 12:49 pm (local)

Sweetness.

Sweet! One of Stewie's sexy parties!

I Don't Wanna Grow Up

Today was interesting. Sam left to go up North and show off his motorcycle, and I was feeling lonely. My apartment managers 12 year old daughter wanted to hang out with me and I was totally up for the company. First we went to have pictures taken at this market place. It was really different from anywhere I've ever went. It was sort of like a mall, but there weren't walls separating the stores, it was sort of like a warehouse, but things were the same price as they are in "real" stores. I dunno, it was pretty cool. The place we went for pictures was fairly cheap. Five dollars for nine wallet sized pictures. After that escapade we went to Taco Bell. Mmmm, so good. Back at the apartment complex I ran into Molly, the mom of the 12 year old I babysit, she needed a babysitter for a "few" hours tonight/last night. I said I could do it, even though Austin and I have colds. She was going to be in bed half and hour after she got here so I figured I'd be fine. So then I had two twelve year olds in my apartment. I have some clothes I'm going to give to Goodwill because I'm sick of them or they don't fit and the girls decided we were going to play dress up. It was fun, we picked out outfits and did eachothers make-up. Oh, and we danced to Barbie Girl and some other music. Then Lexie, the 12 year old I'm babysitting had to go to bed, and Andrea and I stayed up and watched "Raise Your Voice". Anyway, now there are two 12 year olds asleep in my apartment, and Austin's asleep on my bed. It's funny. I feel like a big sister or something. It was really fun to do kid stuff like that again. I mean, I wouldn't want to do it on a regular basis or anything, but it was awesome after such a long time of not doing it. :-)

My Big Boy

Austin rolled over from his back to his tummy this morning. I'm so proud. :-) I have been babysitting since 11am and it is just about 12am. Lucky for me it was between two different children, and they do sleep a fair amount of the time that they're here. Anyway, the one I'm "watching" now was suppose to leave an hour and a half ago, I'm a little frustrated cuz I have bible study tomorrow and I'm tired now... Life goes on though. Sam's been a sweety lately. It's great. He's been reminding me a lot of how he was when we first started dating. Not quite as sweet, but pretty close. :-) Kathy is coming to visit me in a week and a half! I'm very excited to have a visitor. She will be my first one! My apartment is too clean for me. I tidyed up while Sam had duty and the cleanliness is weirding me out. I'm not going to intentionally mess it up though... I dunno, something to get used to I guess. Well, I am way too drained to think of stuff to write, so I'm going to go. Good night.


COMMENTS:
summer_mommy wrote:

Mar. 10th, 2005 09:05 am (local)

Congratulations, Austin! Before you know it, he'll be 9 months old like Maia. *cry*